Ever rediscovered a quietly hidden gem deep inside of you? One that you’ve always known about, felt, but one you just weren’t too sure exactly what to do with.
Perhaps you squished it deep down because of time restraints.
Perhaps you didn’t know where to start.
Perhaps you felt unqualified to pursue it.
Perhaps you use all the excuses above but the reality is you are just plain scared to consider it!
My mum used to tell me ‘honesty is the best policy’ so it feels right to say straight up… that as I sit at this keyboard, I’m coming from a place of all of the excuses above, but knowing full well…. I’M. JUST. SCARED!
You may be wondering what MY ‘quietly hidden gem deep inside’ is. And I’d expect you to wonder but… I’m not sure if that’s the best question or if telling you really matters.
Perhaps the better question to ask me is ‘have you managed to deal with all the excuses and have you overcome your fear?’
NO! My answer is no. I haven’t dealt with my time restraints (like you, I struggle to find the time I need each day just to survive). I’ve had no counsel on how to get started (like you, I know I probably should, but hey, with the time restraints I’m dealing with already how can I fit another thing in). And I most certainly don’t feel qualified (I mean, does one ever feel truly qualified?).
But despite my lack of overcoming – I’m stepping up and moving ahead anyway!
Instead of focusing on the things that are holding me back, I think I’m more aware than I have been of what’s inside of me – yet to burst out. I’ve done my fair share of living, faced my share of struggles and feel like I have a renewed understanding that life truly is short and I’m finally getting a grasp on what truly matters and (quite frankly) what doesn’t.
I’m now learning to see the opportunities of my life (including those ‘quietly hidden gems’) not as things to be scared of but something to be uncovered, pursued and embraced. Instead of defaulting to seeing my life as a closed book of secret gems, hidden beneath my caution, my comparisons and my fear I choose to picture my life as a beautiful leather bound journal. Inside it’s filled with a vast array of textured blank pages.
Each page represents a brand new day. It’s empty. It’s blank. It lies in wait for its author (ME) to direct the script that awaits its beautiful vastness. How freeing is that?
Freeing – I hear you say! What a luxurious word; one that many women don’t associate with their life and list of responsibilities.
I live in the real world too. I know all too well what it is to have tasks, people, finances etc. fighting for my time, my mind, my wallet and my heart. But like you, I also have an inner voice fighting against some of those things knowing full well I really want to courageously pursue those ‘quietly hidden gems’.
Every single day that you and I have offers that same potential. We have a choice; that is what we fill those blank pages with and what we will prioritise to fill our daily lives.
I have a deep seeded belief. It may well come from my life expereience but I strongly believe that as women we often (unintentionally) live small. And we are far from small. We are strong, resilient, nurturing, gentle, intuitive, inventive, relational…. get the picture? Nothing here resembles small.
I love what Paul (an apostle of Jesus) writes to a community of people in the Bible….“I can’t tell you how much I long for you to enter this wide open, spacious life. We didn’t fence you in. The smallness you feel comes from within you. Your lives aren’t small, but you’re living them in a small way. I’m speaking as plainly as I can and with great affection. Open up your lives. Live openly and expansively!” 2 Cor. 6:11-13
The smallness I feel and the fears I cling to comes from within me! I’m living small! I’ve been called to open up my life, my self and to live an expansive life! That’s scary…. but oh my, isn’t it exciting.
And you have too!
So grab yourself a blank page and begin to consider how you can start to unwrap those ‘hidden gems’ and step into the expansive life that Paul speaks of. Even though they may be baby steps at first. Remember for a moment how overjoyed and proud we are when a baby takes those first few baby steps? Well God feels exactly that same way when you begin to step into the expansive life he has designed for you and so should every other woman! We don’t need anymore haters, we need cheerleaders.
If you don’t know where to start or how to pursue that – let’s make time to catch up and work it out together. I’m serious, I’m happy to make a coffee date.
Oh… and if you’re still wondering what MY ‘hidden secret deep inside’ is? Well, it’s writing!
Cheering you on
PS. READ ON. I want to personally invite you to a couple of opportunities that Door of Hope Christian Church has coming up.
ONE: Alpha is a series being presented in our Sunday church services (10am & 5pm) for the next 9 weeks. Alpha is a course which explores Christianity, allowing you the opportunity to ask questions or stay not (seriously). It’s an opportunity to hear from others and contribute your own perspectives in an honest, friendly and open environment. If Flourish (or it’s team members) have ever left you with a pondering, a question, a possibility about God or faith, then Alpha is a perfect time to open that door.
TWO: Dr Allan Meyer & his wife Helen Meyer will be joining us – July 29 – 30 Allan & Helen were also Flourish speakers a few years back (most of you who were there would remember Allan’s ‘putting out the garbage bin’ story). There are 3 very special events you are most welcome to attend.